He knows.

God knows everything.

During my quiet time with the Lord the other morning, I told Him how tired I was of trying to please other people and that I need to forget about doing so and instead make it my goal to please Him.  I read this from Matthew 10:26-31:

So do not be afraid of them. There is nothing concealed that will not be disclosed, or hidden that will not be made known. ²⁷What I tell you in the dark, speak in the daylight; what is whispered in your ear, proclaim from the roofs. ²⁸ Do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather, be afraid of the One who can destroy both soul and body in hell. ²⁹ Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father. ³⁰ And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. ³¹ So don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.

Jesus was speaking directly to me, "Alyssa, so do not be afraid of them."  It was great to realize that I have no excuse when it comes to being afraid to share His truth with other people.  He says it so clearly: "Do not be afraid."

Later in the evening, I went running.  During my run, my thoughts journeyed back to Matthew 10 and that's when it really hit me.  Hard.  Now, if you know me well, you know that I LOVE pennies.  I am the person who stops and picks up pennies off of the ground.  I am even the person who slows down behind a "coin-dropping" person, so that when they are far enough away, I can go pick up the penny they intentionally dropped.  To them, a penny is pretty worthless, but to me, pennies are priceless.  I know, it's a little weird.  But I think I like them because they are different than the rest of the coins.  Anyway...it hit me while I was running that Jesus knows me so well.  So well.  Look at the passage again.  See?  Two sparrows are sold for a penny.  But Jesus said, "you are worth more than many sparrows."  That means He was saying to me, that to Him, I am worth more than many pennies!!!  It was a wonderful moment.  I stopped running and starred up at the stars.  I stood there in awe of my God.

This morning was the sixth morning in a row that I woke up after not sleeping through the night.  I was letting God know that it was a little discouraging to wake up to the alarm, knowing that I was not fully rested.  And then I naturally went ahead and read from Matthew 11.  Here is what Jesus said to me in verses 28-30:

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. ²⁹ Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. ³⁰ For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.

It was so comforting to know that He knows everything.  About my likes and dislikes.  About my biggest fears and craziest dreams.  About even when I am tired.

I do not know what lies ahead.  I do not know what tomorrow will bring.  But I do know that He knows.  I am reminded of a song a friend and I wrote in middle school:

Questions are flooding my mind
The answers are so hard to find
Now I have realized
You want it that way
I know that You know
What I don't.

That's what peace is.  Knowing He knows all the stuff I don't.
Praise to my very best friend, the Omniscient King of Kings!