I am so excited.
At the beginning of college, my future was written out...by me. I had everything laid out, planned perfectly. For the next 8 years of life.
And then, I realized that my plan was not good for me. It was not God's best for me. And that's because it was mine.
Sophomore year at a girls' retreat at my church at college, my pastor, Kyle, made a life-changing remark. He said that my future is not unknown; it is just un-named.
"...All the days ordained for me were written in Your book before one of them came to be." Psalm 139:16
God has had the plan all along. And by all along, I mean before there was a living, breathing Alyssa Robertson Brown.
So my future turned into this fog that only God knows. Being blind was hard at first, but it was a real comfort knowing I was being led by the One who never sleeps, who is always watching over the earth. He sees everything. He knows everything.
And now, the waiting and the trusting is natural. I can only say that it is through God that I am not a nervous, anxious wreck right now. He has everything, including what's next for me, in His hands.
And now, as I head off to the Journeyman Conference the future instead appears in my mind as an opening book.
I am running down the page as it is being turned
Hoping to see
What is there just beyond all I can see
With my own little eyes.
The next page in life is coming. I am getting closer to see where He has me planned to be for the next two years.
I cannot wait to see what letters will form on the page in front of me this week.
Please pray for confidence and continued reliance upon Him.
Where do I go from here?
Well, I don't know that yet.
But I do know that I am on my way to...
There.
